Main Kya hoon?

Woman Raising Her Arms

ek saya hoon ya ek parinda 

ek leher hoon ya ek boond hoon

ek peher hoon ya ek goonj hoon

ek bhaav hoon ya ek soch hoon

ek aakar hoon ya ek vichar hoon

Main kaun hoon… main kaun hoon…

Silhouette of Woman Raising His Hand

ek parivaar hoon ya ek ehsaas hoon

ek abhinetri hoon ya ek kalakaar hoon

ek lamha hoon ya ek pal hoon

main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon

Photo of Man Standing on Rock Formation

ek kahani hoon ya ek shayari hoon

ek yaad hoon ya ek meethi bol hoon

ek khoya pehchan hoon ya ek nanhi si jaan hoon

main kaun hoon…main kaun hoon…

White Top


ek safar hoon ya ek manzil hoon

ek saas hoon ya ek jeevan hoon 

ek parichay hoon ya ek geet hoon

ek pal hoon ya ek intezaar hoon

Main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon

Person Sitting on Rock at Golden HourWoman Facing River Between Brown Fields

ek khushi hoon ya ek hasi hoon

ek anand hoon ya ek khusbhoo

ek silsila hoon ya ek sannata hoon

ek sthirtha hoon ya phir chanchalta hoon

ek shabd hoon ya phir nishabd hoon

ek pratibimb hoon ya ek sakshi hoon

main kuuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon

Woman Wearing Purple Hooded Jacket Sitting on Rock

ek chetan hoon ya phir jad hoon 

ek bhakti is taar hoon ya prem ki behti leher hoon, 

ek gyaan ki dhar hoon ya ek khojta mumukshu hoon

ek shishya hoon ya phir guru hoon

ek yogi hoon ya ek sansari hoon 

ek lobhi hoon ya moh ke jal mein phasi hoon 

Main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon 

Silhouette of Man Standing Near Body of Water

ek khamoshi hoon ya ek awaz hoon 

ek shor hoon ya ek khayal hoon 

ek kshama hoon ya ek judaai hoon 

ek parwana hoon ya ek deewana hoon 

koi guzri gali hoon yar ek raah hoon 

Main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon 

Silhouette of Man Standing on Lake at Sunset

ek shanti hoo yar ek kranti hoon 

ek rishtaa hoon ya aek insaan hoon 

ek dil ka tukda hoon ya khula asman hoon 

ek aag ki jalti agni hoon ya ek aseemm aaksash hoon 

ek gehri sachayi hoon ya koi avinsahi jhoot hoon

Main kaun hoon …. Main kaun hoon…

Silhouette of Feather Dreamcatcher

meher ki barsaat hoon ya koi farishtey ki duan hoon

sache ashiq ka ishq hoon , tere hi mohabat mein “main” fanna ho jaao…

Red Petaled Flowers




From a bunch of Ellipses to a Full stop. #2

The thing about trauma…

Close-Up Photography of Hand Near Window

After a long time of trying to fool yourself into believing that you are a happy go lucky individual without any trauma or suppression in your individual life. Let us take a moment, reflect, introspect and come to terms with what’s happening within us. Life is different from what it seems to be. To be spiritual doesn’t mean to shun the world within your mind, which has suffered at one level. No blame game here. Nobody can be responsible for what your state of mind is or was at one point of time. It’s all your responsibility. The thing about responsibilities is, so long as you take them you should be just fine. It means you have the strength to go through the situation and you chose to take it up. If you have been given them, means you have the capability. But the knack of doing well in such situations, comes from believing in yourself. If you are that person who keeps telling yourself and others that you cannot do something, means that you have to be given another chance. You have to give yourself another chance, nobody else can give you another chance anyways.

Responsibilities are something which reminds you of how strong you are, it makes you the best of yourself. You couldn’t have done better if you chose to take the responsibilities. Yet, often what happens if something else. It makes us weaker. As we run away from responsibilities. Our families constantly tell us, remind us that we are made to be taking responsibility. It’s not that easy. It’s about believing in yourself. The day you believe in yourself, your ability, your capabilities, your strength, your faith in the divine. You should be just fine.

Life was meant to be used in order to be of use to others (Seva), life was given so that you could repay your karmic debts, life happened so that your karmic accounts could be settled. Life is an opportunity for you to learn. So failure, is not the end. It is that stepping stone which is essential. You will learn from it. So just because you couldn’t do something, doesn’t mean you can’t do anything. Your life is not as complicated as you end up making it to be.

You have been in a cocoon always, you could never have been a butterfly, and you would have never learnt how to fly if that cocoon of protection around you wouldn’t have broken off. You would always have been the typical individual. Today was a lesson, tomorrow is an opportunity to start afresh. So take the learning and make the required changes. Fly because you’re not meant to cry… its okay if you lost your warmth and protection, make it your choice not a compulsion.

Orange Flower With Butterfly

If you have been broken, if you have gone through a lot, if life has handed you too much. It’s alright. You have been used to support, it is time to throw away those crutches now. Life is not meant to be wasted like this. I understand that problems keep coming, situations will keep coming. Nothing changes.

Some people understand you some don’t. Period. Everyone will come into your life, play their role and leave. It’s not about faking it in front of these people. It’s about being truthful to yourself. You are a strong individual. You have been through a lot. So think about those people in your life who have always been with you. They have been your strength. They will always be with you.

Responsibility isn’t a physical phenomenon. Doing something for someone isn’t physical. It’s a mental and emotion state. It needs strength. You need to believe in yourself to be able to do it. It’s about being so strong that you can take what life hands you with open arms. If it’s breaking you inside, if it’s wreaking havoc with your inner state of mind, and somewhere you’re fighting it inside, one day it will all come out. It won’t be good that day. You will cry a lot. You will fight a lot. You will break a lot. You will be lost. You will feel alone. You will feel like a failure. Like it’s the end.

But that’s not life. Life is more. You have to learn to come out of this. Some people are fast and some slow. Some people take responsibilities very fast, some never do… its okay to be the latter. But it shouldn’t end like that. Work on yourself. Make yourself stronger. You need to be there for yourself. Start building your inner core. Work on maintaining a balance. You have broken time and again… but we can’t stay broken, we eventually learn to build ourselves…

English Cocker Spaniel Puppy Sitting On Ground Beside Grass

Now it’s time to build yourself from scratch, so build yourself the way you want to be. Be grateful that you got another chance and start now…

Take care of yourself, you deserve more, much more is within your hands than you feel, be strong and learn to be happy. Send forgiveness to the situation, give yourself time… time heals everything…

Orange Flower

From a bunch of Ellipses to a Full stop #1


Man Blindfolded

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The suppression is real. There is true social suppression happening in the world. It happens everywhere. If you live in a society you are already a part of it. You may even be doing it to someone. Even if you are unaware, suppression is wrong. It means to dominate someone, kill someone’s passion, undermine someone’s opinion, devalue human life, and crucify humanity.

Suppression needn’t be violence, it is very smooth. It has just become a part of who we are. Life is not a race you need to win by making other people lose. Life is simple. Just live your life, don’t interfere in another person’s life. Advice is different, it can be given when you feel the other need helps. But compelling them to follow your ideologies is suppression. You are stopping them from blossoming, learning their lessons and finishing their karmic accounts. You don’t have a right. Just because you feel you are stronger, or the other person is giving in to your demands for whatever reason, doesn’t mean they are weak.

The one who feels the need to prove their power, is the weaker one always. So why one person should let another person’s weakness become their source of suppression? It is time to think. We need to put a full stop to this kind of suppression. Somewhere in a house a mother is being suppressed by every member of the family. Somewhere the child is being suppressed.  Somewhere the father and so on. Inevitably, we are all being suppressed. No one is true, no one is natural anymore. We are all a result of who someone else wanted us to be. Somewhere we have lost our individuality, we have lost our identity. We have to remember that we are not an outcome of the social norms. It is one thing to follow a few rules in order to maintain discipline and it is another to live like a hypocrite, so that you fit in.

Judgement, hypocrisy, hatred, lust and bondage are all a result of suppression. We are all suppressing one part of our true nature. We all want to be known only for our goodness. Does that mean only goodness exist within us. If our other qualities are always going to be hidden, when are we going to come to terms with curbing them?

This was about internally suppressing the qualities within us. There are some people in the world, who have suppressed their passions, their love for life to keep someone else happy…

Why do people give up on something which means everything to them? Why does someone give up their lease for life so easily? Like they give up a food item? Who says that is not suppression? Who says that is right? It is wrong. Sometimes people give up their happiness for others, to keep them happy. That is a suppression. It happens on a very subtle forum, but it still hurts… it is like taking away their life force… its the worst thing anyone can do to someone:(

Suppression is a sin. First we need to come out of the ties of suppression yourself, only then will we be able to help each other. In a world where even the way you look, the way you dress, what you do and what you don’t do, beings about suppression and judgement. I think we really need to get busier in our own lives. Its time to stop being a hypocrite. We are busy living someone else’s life for them. Let them enjoy their life, their life is none of our business. Only when we start living our life we will express our true nature and let other express their true nature. It’s time to be natural, it’s time to be free, it’s time to give space and most importantly it’s time to put a full stop to this suppression.

It’s been going on since a long time, it is time to end it now. So you reflect now, where the web of suppression has made its house in your life, and break it. It has to start somewhere…

Don’t Suppress and don’t take Suppression!

Woman in Red Dress Sitting on Brown Rock

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