Main Kya hoon?

Woman Raising Her Arms

ek saya hoon ya ek parinda 

ek leher hoon ya ek boond hoon

ek peher hoon ya ek goonj hoon

ek bhaav hoon ya ek soch hoon

ek aakar hoon ya ek vichar hoon

Main kaun hoon… main kaun hoon…

Silhouette of Woman Raising His Hand

ek parivaar hoon ya ek ehsaas hoon

ek abhinetri hoon ya ek kalakaar hoon

ek lamha hoon ya ek pal hoon

main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon

Photo of Man Standing on Rock Formation

ek kahani hoon ya ek shayari hoon

ek yaad hoon ya ek meethi bol hoon

ek khoya pehchan hoon ya ek nanhi si jaan hoon

main kaun hoon…main kaun hoon…

White Top

 

ek safar hoon ya ek manzil hoon

ek saas hoon ya ek jeevan hoon 

ek parichay hoon ya ek geet hoon

ek pal hoon ya ek intezaar hoon

Main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon

Person Sitting on Rock at Golden HourWoman Facing River Between Brown Fields

ek khushi hoon ya ek hasi hoon

ek anand hoon ya ek khusbhoo

ek silsila hoon ya ek sannata hoon

ek sthirtha hoon ya phir chanchalta hoon

ek shabd hoon ya phir nishabd hoon

ek pratibimb hoon ya ek sakshi hoon

main kuuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon

Woman Wearing Purple Hooded Jacket Sitting on Rock

ek chetan hoon ya phir jad hoon 

ek bhakti is taar hoon ya prem ki behti leher hoon, 

ek gyaan ki dhar hoon ya ek khojta mumukshu hoon

ek shishya hoon ya phir guru hoon

ek yogi hoon ya ek sansari hoon 

ek lobhi hoon ya moh ke jal mein phasi hoon 

Main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon 

Silhouette of Man Standing Near Body of Water

ek khamoshi hoon ya ek awaz hoon 

ek shor hoon ya ek khayal hoon 

ek kshama hoon ya ek judaai hoon 

ek parwana hoon ya ek deewana hoon 

koi guzri gali hoon yar ek raah hoon 

Main kuch nahi hoon ya phir sab kuch hoon 

Silhouette of Man Standing on Lake at Sunset

ek shanti hoo yar ek kranti hoon 

ek rishtaa hoon ya aek insaan hoon 

ek dil ka tukda hoon ya khula asman hoon 

ek aag ki jalti agni hoon ya ek aseemm aaksash hoon 

ek gehri sachayi hoon ya koi avinsahi jhoot hoon

Main kaun hoon …. Main kaun hoon…

Silhouette of Feather Dreamcatcher

meher ki barsaat hoon ya koi farishtey ki duan hoon

sache ashiq ka ishq hoon , tere hi mohabat mein “main” fanna ho jaao…

Red Petaled Flowers

 

 

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Ek purana phasana…

Woman in Yellow Dress Standing on Pink Petaled Flower Field

Humari zindagi ek kahani lekar ayi hai,

Hum sirf abhineta maatr hai,

Ek likhi gayi kahani ko jeene aye hai hum,

Har choti ehsas pehle hi likhi gayi hai,

Har bhaav ki pehle se hi zikr ho chuki hai,

Humari zindagi kya sach mein humari hi hai?

Yah phir hum sirf kuch pehle se likhi gayi kahaniyon ko nibhane aaye hai?

Shayad hume yaha kuch naya banane ke liye nahi bheja tha,

Ek kahani mere ankhon ke saamne janam le rahi hai, uska anubhav lena hai,

Par woh koi naya kissa nahi, bas ek aur purana phasana hai,

Is kirdar ko nibhate nibhate, kya hum humari sachayi ko hi bhool jayenge?

White Dressed Girl Across Black Mountains

Jee Le Har Pal…

Photo of Brown House Near Mountain

Har pal badalti hai samay, har naye pal mein nayi zindagi le aati hai samay,

Har rishte mein yaadein chod jaati hai samay, kharch ho jate hai hum, beetati rehti hai samay,

Har yaad ke bheetar chupe ehsaas ki ek jhalak dikhati hai samay,

Har zikr mein chupi tanhayi ko behkati hai samay,

Har pal, har soch ko kash jee leta yeh man, kya pata in khayalon ko jeene ke liye na reh jaye hum….

Person With Body Painting

Kuch…hai.

Pink and Purple Wallpaper

Kuch rishte gehre ehsaas chod jate hai,

Kuch pal rooh ko choo jate hai,

Kuch log dil ke bahut kareeb aa jate hai,

Kuch yaadien hum kabhi nahi bhoola paate hai,

Kuch baatien hamesha baaki reh jaate hai,

Kuch lamhe humare man mein tasveer bankar reh jaate hai,

Kuch kisse waqt ke sath shuru ho jate hai aur,

Kuch kahaniya ek kshan mein jaise ghul hate hai,

Leheron ki tarah ut kar phir se samundar mein hii sama jaate hai…

Body of Water Under Sunset

Khamoshi…

Woman in Purple Sweater Sitting on Wooden Floor With View of Lake and Mountains

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Sun meri baton ko, mein isharon mein bolti hoon,

Mein baarish ki tarah, aasunon mein beh jaati hoon

Mein suraj ki kirano ki tarah, hasi ki raunak mein ghul jaati hoon,

Mein chaand ki tarah, man mein ek sheetal aur thandak chod jaati hoon,

Mein behti nadi ki tarah, har pal badal jaati hoon,

Mein gehri raat ki tarah, kahi raaz lekar chalti hoon,

Mein aag ki tarah, kahi jalwe bhasm karti hoon,

Mein Aakash ki tarah, apne bheetar sab sama jaati hoon,

Mein baadalon ki tarah, hamesha chalti rehti hoon.,

Mein samay ki tarah, har kshan naye pal jeeti hoon,

Mein khamoshi ki tarah, ek sukoon chod jaati hoon,

Mein hoo kaun? Bas teri unkahi, unsuni, khamoshi, aur kaun….

Cosmic Embrace

black-and-white, child, cute

A distraught daughter,

Looked hither tither,

Searching for her mother,

Her doe-like tear filled eyes depicted fear,

Selective Color Photography of Blood Moon

She looked deep into the sky,

All she saw was a moon,

The stars and a few birds fly,

The cosmos glimmered in a divine swoon,

Photo Gray Scale of a Child With Floral Tiara

Tears welled up blurring her vision,

She cried in confusion,

What was life doing to her ,

She wondered where was her mother,

angel, art, artwork

A strong embodiment of love and grace,

Blessed with a divine face,

Her mother promised to be by her side,

Forever she would stand beside,

abstract, angelic, art

The daughter surrendered lost,

Saw a shadow near her flicker,

She looked up aghast,

To see her divine mother,

White Angel Sitting Figurine

The one she had cried to meet,

To see her so real,

To see her smile was so sweet,

The feeling was deeply surreal,

angel, art, black-and-white

In a moment of silence they stood

Communicating in silence, they understood,

They had met due to divine grace,

Dissolving forever into a cosmic embrace…

Illusions and Emotions

Man Blindfolded

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One day the illusion breaks, what you thought to be true, cease to be anymore…

What you felt was real, is only left in the deepest recess of your mind…

What you experienced, was all in a state of confusion or illusion…

The people you were attached to, moved on to progress in their lives…

You sat there feeling stagnant, waiting for those times to come back…

But everything has changed forever, no one remained the same anymore,

So with the good wishes, blessings and love forever alive in your heart,

Its time for you to move on today…

adorable, adventure, autumn colours

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The broken illusion beckons to you, as you stand sad and distraught…

The shadows of time, will soon wreck the illusion apart…

All that will remain will be the memories you kept in your heart,

The emotions you expressed and the experiences you sought…

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Very soon you will be free, starting at a new sunset…

The same sun setting, but in another corner of the world…

Making new memories while these sweet memories give you strength,

With gratitude in your heart and everlasting warm smile on your face

As the breeze lightly caresses the soul, wrapping you into a mystic embrace…

Silhouette of a Woman

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From a bunch of Ellipses to a Full stop. #2

The thing about trauma…

Close-Up Photography of Hand Near Window

After a long time of trying to fool yourself into believing that you are a happy go lucky individual without any trauma or suppression in your individual life. Let us take a moment, reflect, introspect and come to terms with what’s happening within us. Life is different from what it seems to be. To be spiritual doesn’t mean to shun the world within your mind, which has suffered at one level. No blame game here. Nobody can be responsible for what your state of mind is or was at one point of time. It’s all your responsibility. The thing about responsibilities is, so long as you take them you should be just fine. It means you have the strength to go through the situation and you chose to take it up. If you have been given them, means you have the capability. But the knack of doing well in such situations, comes from believing in yourself. If you are that person who keeps telling yourself and others that you cannot do something, means that you have to be given another chance. You have to give yourself another chance, nobody else can give you another chance anyways.

Responsibilities are something which reminds you of how strong you are, it makes you the best of yourself. You couldn’t have done better if you chose to take the responsibilities. Yet, often what happens if something else. It makes us weaker. As we run away from responsibilities. Our families constantly tell us, remind us that we are made to be taking responsibility. It’s not that easy. It’s about believing in yourself. The day you believe in yourself, your ability, your capabilities, your strength, your faith in the divine. You should be just fine.

Life was meant to be used in order to be of use to others (Seva), life was given so that you could repay your karmic debts, life happened so that your karmic accounts could be settled. Life is an opportunity for you to learn. So failure, is not the end. It is that stepping stone which is essential. You will learn from it. So just because you couldn’t do something, doesn’t mean you can’t do anything. Your life is not as complicated as you end up making it to be.

You have been in a cocoon always, you could never have been a butterfly, and you would have never learnt how to fly if that cocoon of protection around you wouldn’t have broken off. You would always have been the typical individual. Today was a lesson, tomorrow is an opportunity to start afresh. So take the learning and make the required changes. Fly because you’re not meant to cry… its okay if you lost your warmth and protection, make it your choice not a compulsion.

Orange Flower With Butterfly

If you have been broken, if you have gone through a lot, if life has handed you too much. It’s alright. You have been used to support, it is time to throw away those crutches now. Life is not meant to be wasted like this. I understand that problems keep coming, situations will keep coming. Nothing changes.

Some people understand you some don’t. Period. Everyone will come into your life, play their role and leave. It’s not about faking it in front of these people. It’s about being truthful to yourself. You are a strong individual. You have been through a lot. So think about those people in your life who have always been with you. They have been your strength. They will always be with you.

Responsibility isn’t a physical phenomenon. Doing something for someone isn’t physical. It’s a mental and emotion state. It needs strength. You need to believe in yourself to be able to do it. It’s about being so strong that you can take what life hands you with open arms. If it’s breaking you inside, if it’s wreaking havoc with your inner state of mind, and somewhere you’re fighting it inside, one day it will all come out. It won’t be good that day. You will cry a lot. You will fight a lot. You will break a lot. You will be lost. You will feel alone. You will feel like a failure. Like it’s the end.

But that’s not life. Life is more. You have to learn to come out of this. Some people are fast and some slow. Some people take responsibilities very fast, some never do… its okay to be the latter. But it shouldn’t end like that. Work on yourself. Make yourself stronger. You need to be there for yourself. Start building your inner core. Work on maintaining a balance. You have broken time and again… but we can’t stay broken, we eventually learn to build ourselves…

English Cocker Spaniel Puppy Sitting On Ground Beside Grass

Now it’s time to build yourself from scratch, so build yourself the way you want to be. Be grateful that you got another chance and start now…

Take care of yourself, you deserve more, much more is within your hands than you feel, be strong and learn to be happy. Send forgiveness to the situation, give yourself time… time heals everything…

Orange Flower